sometimes you just need a reality check

I will fully admit that sometimes, life just gets the better of me.  This past week just happened to be one of those times.

I'm not sure how much (or how often) I really let on to this blog that I feel a little beaten down by life lately.  While it was great to see my family over the holidays, driving back and forth to Chicago three times in three months was a lot.  Mixed in with several trips to other cities for work....  I was tired.

It's been 17 months of living in my house alone (granted the 7 month period of time when I had the Hales at my house for a reprieve).  I'm tired of making the hour drive to and from work.  I'm tired of getting up at 5am to get ready for work.  I'm tired of my daily routine of walking Samson, going to work, coming home, walking Samson, eating dinner, watching some TV, and then going to bed.  I'm tired of feeling like a hermit.

I hit my limit.

And life got the best of me.

It's hard to always remember how lucky you are, or how good things are going.... when the not so good things seem to be hitting you in the face.  It could be a lot worse.  I could be in severe debt.  I could be living somewhere else, in a terrible relationship that isn't working.  There are a lot of things that could make my situation worse.

All things considered, I am pretty damn lucky.

But it's hard to always remember that.  It's hard to not see/hear/read things about other people and not be envious.  To feel like the grass is always greener.  Or to think that there is no possible way you would ever be lucky enough to feel that way.  And that big green-eyed monster rears it's head.

So I needed a little perspective.  I needed to remind myself that while things seem terrible now, they will not always be this way.  In fact, things could be infinitely better soon.  I have a loving family and wonderful friends. And I am thankful.