Yesterday ended up being a weird nostalgic kind of day. It started with a string of chatting on facebook between 5 of us that were good friends in grade school. Discussion that brought up so many things I had forgotten that I caught myself laughing out loud a few times. This string is actually continuing (and growing with participants) today. Now the talks are of having a 15 year reunion gathering with my grade school friends. 15 years.... yikes.
Then, I had a random text chat with my old high school boyfriend, whom I hadn't spoken to since around Christmas time when he drunk dialed me after seeing my mom at her work. It was a brief conversation, but I felt better heading to bed.
It's a weird feeling having all these same conversations on one day. How I wished that I had lived closer and gotten the opportunities to stay in touch with these people. Facebook has been nice in that there is still a way to communicate with these people, but it's not the same as sitting down face-to-face and chatting. And often, I wish that I could do so.
A funny revelation considering one of the major reasons for me moving out to DC in the first place was because I was tired of running into people I knew all the time. I specifically remember being in a Kohl's across the street from my high school with some of my family. I saw one of my grade school friend's parents at the check out line and I actually hid from them. I ducked below the clothes so they wouldn't see me, JUST so that I didn't have to have a conversation with them. It was at that point (as well as seeing on facebook that some people from high school were hanging out at the same bars in Chicago that I had been out to). Something about all of this made me feel a little claustrophobic. I couldn't imagine having to deal with this daily. So when the opportunity came up to move out of the area, I jumped on it.
I look back now, not completely regretting my decision, but seeing some of these people still have good relationships (apparent via facebook chats) and I am envious. It begs the question... what type of relationship do I want with friends from my past?
I know exactly how you feel. Just through facebook, you can tell people have stayed in touch and it feels weird to be on the outside when you used to be included... even if it was years and years ago! I'm having the same feelings about undergrad friends too - especially since I went to vet school and became a hermit because I was always too busy and tired to do anything, much less travel to see people or have normal phone conversations. Four years later, I feel like I just graduated undergrad since I'm still in school - but people have four more years on their lives than I do... if that makes any sense - I just feel "stunted" because I continued school and am not in the "real world" yet...
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